don' want to want...

I wanted to write

And they cut my thumb..

I wanted a glass of water

And my home got flooded..

I wanted some sunshine

And they wrecked my hut..

I wanted to dance

And they made me deaf..

I wanted to live

And they put me in morgue..

I wanted freedom

And they nailed my thoughts..

Now, I don’t want anything

And they are forcing me to die..!!!!

SIPping the LYF...

....wrote this wen the Internship Process in XL was going...though not a great writer bt tried to put down the emotions ....thru which ppl went....
A disclaimer: These are my personal observations and is not meant to hurt anyone......

So started the Summers.......
Bt was it really for Bummers.
With an enthu for SIP of life...
walking on the edge of knife.
some passed d days sleep'g..
while a few cribbing......
sm were dre thru thick and thin....
& a few went wid an up chin..
Few dint have the puff of luck
With majority saying WTF...
Yet there was a bonding.....
Amidst the comps haunting........
wid me in the process still...
listening to the words 'just chill'....
From dusk to dawn..it went on an on..
SIP 2010..has finally gone....

A knock from the memory lanes....

Memories are afresh, 7 years back, same day, I along with my friends were on stage, dancing on the tunes of Ismail darbar,lyrics of Nusrat Badr and undoubtedly the melodious and soothing voices of Udit Narayanan, Vinod Rathod, Shreya Ghosal. Oh!! what a night. Yes! it was my freshers night, one of my all time best.

It was at around 2am in the morning when the party ended but we thought of staying at the venue for some more time and as always it just passed. It was 5 when we made a move. Winters had already started and it was dark but by the time we reached to our room.suraj k pehli....nahi I think do hazzar chey sau paintaliswi kiran had struck the surface.
In Bikaner, life kick starts in the early hours of morning so already few of the families have started their daily chorus. As me and Raju entered the lane of our PG, we saw two old ladies staring at us as if we were from a different planet. Actually they were right, after the party our condition was nowhere comparable to an ordinary human and as we moved a house or two further, another senior citizen had some nice thoughts on and for us.

Well things didn’t end here. As I opened the main gate of our PG, he was standing right there and OMG she too, gone big time. But how they and when but why.....?? A few One word questions were there and I was Googling them...lolzzz…Well here He and she are my landlord and landlady, RESPECTIVELY.

“So u guys enjoying too much of freedom”, She Said.
“Na Aunty....ham to bas…”, as always Raju was first to give justifications but this time nobody cared to listen..
“Shut up!!!..Is this the time to come? Where were you last night? Don’t you have any manners? Do you do the same stuff in Jaipur?” He shouted. Well there were few more which I don’t remember and don’t want to either but why only Jaipur..why not Mathura, gurrrr…..
“What were you guys upto that the people complained and called us here….”
“No Uncle. nothing as such. We just had dance practice here for the freshers party and nothing else and we were in the party only…last nig…”.
“Whatever. I don’t want to listen any complaints from now onwards else u can leave the flat”. He interrupted

We nodded and climbed the stairs. By the time many people have come to watch a free of cost show at 4E467.
As I was climbing, I saw the girl next door. Ohh!!! I mean the same girl (remember, last time I introduced her. NO! better u read blogs from start:) )nodding her head.
I thought she was trying to sympathize, so sweet of her. I mean atleast I have someone who think I am right. I have someone who will be my side all time. I have someone whom I can trust upon. I have someone…who…who.....Bang!!!!
“Abe...where the hell are u watching.”, Raju shouted.

I sat there on the step to regain my lost senses and stood up with a 1.5 cm diameter swelling on my forehead. The starting was bad and had no clue of what’s more in store for the rest of the day and only soother was SHE(the girl and not the landlady) and her concerns. :)

nite-out.....

Today, was the first nite out here in XL but obvious not for studies. Though I did prepare an OB related doc but not something great.

Yesterday, half of the day went sleeping, rest went in surfing, movie, .epic theatre, SOP for Dracula committee and BC, BC bole to baat-chit. Next week,two big events;mid-term quizzes for BFA and Eco. It reminds me of the fame XL song “Sabka Katega....” to be very sure, the makers of this song had real fore-sightedness.

Coming back to quizzes; Yes! they have more or less become an event, never scored marks with such an economical perspective. Max. so far is 55%, don’t know what is happening but something needs to be changed drastically otherwise..... :( Today and tomorrow would be deciding day regarding the status of preparation for the quizzes.Presently facing with a big dilemma whether I should sleep or not because it’s already 5.30 am. Its very tough sometimes to decide on sleeping part which is one of the cheapest commodity one can ever get. But one good thing is that I am slowly adjusting to the environment as in staying awake late at nights and waking up late on weekends.

..deadline...11:59:59.......

...deadline...hah; I never had a chance to meet it in my life, this time the case was of submitting marketing prj before 12 midnight yesterday or to be more specific maximum by 11:59:59pm.

As always we were way behind of schedule or euphemistically, schedule was running way ahead of us, there were some serious apprehensions whether we will be able to meet deadline or not, though I dint have any doubts because of my experience.:)
and then there was an announcement of GBM to be followed by selection of CRs. We decided not to go for GBM but to go and cast our vote for CR selection as voting karna bahut jaruri hai, issay hame ek acha CR milega, jo apni jimmedariyan imandaari se poori karega.....jo naitikta k saath apna kartavya nibhaega.
Anyways we went for voting at around 10.45pm and thought of returning JJHS(jitna jaldi ho sake. But the selection program was a long procedure so got a laptop for finishing the work on time and then things started. On one side, it was CR candidate speaking with active DCP by a few and on other side, Marketing prj. Bomber was still scribing something. By this time, a few batchmates got to knew about the status of our assignment and then it was like.15 mins left....10 mins.....5 mins...bomber still typing. 1 min to go and I totally went crazy.
Countdown started....50 sec......30 sec....10 sec....and then attachment button went missing. Oh mistake, was nowhere in sight..oh then somehow found it and then the digital wall clock behind us showed 12 midnight. Dude we missed deadline again.
it was at 12:00:12. ”Send” button was clicked. ohh thank god! atleast we sent...oh no!!!! The mail is still in outbox, this is going way too messy but to our relief, it took a few more seconds to move from “Outbox” to “Sent” folder.
After returning to room,I checked my mailbox and boy guess what!!! the mail arrived in my mailbox at 11:59pm. So...so, we were in time, sounds more like filmy but it’s true.....!!!!
The deadline bug struck us again but this time somehow we managed; keeping fingers, legs, hands crossed for next time......!!!!

....NiraSAW.....but dint hear.....

NIRASAW was the name of our product for the Maxi Bazaar, worked like dogs, screwed up OB quiz, dint sleep for 2hrs. in last 2 days, shouted at the pick of our voices, ran in rain for almost 3 times; pushing, pulling, abusing for getting the space to advertise our product; got good places, were happy as a team, brain-stormed for catchy tag-lines, prepared countless charts, did everything which is required for winning and yes; we did. We came first out of 6 teams.

Adrenaline was running like anything, it was a moment of great achievement, fists punching in air, hugs all around, jumping, yelling and what not, truly glorifying moments. After all, we came first and would be getting a cash prize of 20,000 bucks..WOW!!! But good things end soon & in our case it was soonest as one of the senior announces that hamara kat chukka hai. There was no such event, seniors played a prank on us, don’t know what to say. It’s all happening by the name of culture. Seniors says that their seniors also did the same with them so bottom-line is that; the CULTURE continues....
But best part is that got to knew some more seniors and even they also helped us while doing this stuff so it was not that much painful, only point which is still giving me a tough time is OB quiz. If there would have been no Maxi, I could have done better. Anyways, this is XL where anything can happen anytime. Ohh yeah! by the way our product was a multi-purpose sound stopper.ranging from noise pollution, fart solution, DCP and... some words should not be written. Tomorrow will get QT’s numbers kuch to acha ho yaar....!!!

...OhhhB.....

Two days have passed and still not a quanta of prj wrk. Production proj can be taken care of but what to do in OB and CSE still a mystery. I am getting daymares, to add to misery have to submit some heavy analysis on marketing prj. Meetings, meetings, more meetings but no concrete output.

Its 2.30 am, was just surfing to look out for some inputs for OB, one of the deadliest weapons of 1st term but as the saying goes 'It’s hard to find a needle in hay', same is for OB, still struggling with dependent and independent variables, the irony is sometimes dependent is independent enough to be considered and the independent is too concerned with someone, oops sounds crazy so am I. Anyways, its sport weekend going on here, Seniors vs. Juniors, loads and loads of bullying, cursing, in one of the most prestigious “Ratanjee” event. Lots of drama but end result as scripted Seniors have to won, though they did play few events good:)

Oh! it’s high time to return to OB, hope to find something good enough to share with team, planning to go for a night out today, wishes to me, lolzz!!
Ending with a self made quote.
“if you want to succeed in life....read OB!!!! :)”

a sigh of relief...

....its 4.30am, still awake but this time not for studies, just came after watching one of the finest movies of all times, Shawshank Redemption, a story which makes u believe that HOPE is the most important and now playing counter strike, to add-on, screwed up 3 quizzes in a row in last 3 days but still Hoping to bounce back, a typical B-school life.

Last 4-5 days went in full tension as I had 3 quizzes lined up including a surprise one of marketing. The scary thing was QT and Managerial Eco quiz, back to back on two days and mind it. Here aim was not to get good marks but to somehow pass. QT I mangaged a 50% and MGE was reduced to 40%, credit to my lack of knowledge on subjects concern. Anyways as I said earlier, riding on HOPE for next quizzes. Though next 3 days, no classes but this weekend I have to start working on my projects, umpteen of them.:(

Rest classes are as usual going, bouncers or deads(count in when I am sleeping in lectures) nothing much to write. Today Bodhi tree gave performance and asked juniors to come up with original songs, only 2-3 were good.:( I think I should have gone but as usual no zeal...:(

Anyways waiting for next time till then will prepare a good song!!!!

CHEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.....!!

markeTING..ting...ti..ding...

yet another class of marketing, few more fundas or wat we call here as GYAAN and yet another session of illogical queries by fellas and this tym, I too was one of the protaganists..
study by XLers has revealed that to get rid of sleep in lectures, do ask illogical senseless things to proffs, its a sleep destroyer, also it gives u a chance to show DCP, Despo Class Participation.:):)
but good things never come cheap so dont be too despo that proff makes ur lyf miserable and u land up to an F, dont get me otherwise, this F is the grade.:)

anyways, studies is wat i am looking for next 3 days, my batchmates are too studious and to cope up, I too need to study otherwise if concept of relativity comes into picture. At later stages, I will be screwed up big tym.

euphoric nite

It was d nite to remember, a nite where stars came down the earth in form of candles in the hands of seniors lining up on either sides of pavements and we the juniors, were walking with a sense of pride and achievement, don't know for wat.
this was yet another tym, I realized that I am in one of the best B-school of India, the tradition, the culture n all. AWESOME is no comparison and then buckets full of soapy water on us, drenching us from top to bottom and then snrs greeting us on joining XL, everywhere there was a sense of euphoria with snrs and jnrs, all being part of wats called as an XL culture.
then the DJ, I danced till 3 in morning with my back and neck aching but still the JAJBA of dancing the hell out was there, it was once in a lifetime thing and ya ofcourse, the one which u cant forget in ur entire lifetime.
XL rocks and so do WE !!!